June 3, 2000
There is a gathering of the women in the family
around Goldie’s dinning room table, sorting through the responses to Loren’s wedding. Jessica and Reece had flown in for final dress fittings. Jessica’s
was made big since she would either still be pregnant or just getting over having the baby.
Vanessa -
“I think everyone RSVP’d
to the positive”
Loren glances sideways at her mother, who is sorting
through the opened envelopes. Loren picks up another one and sighes and rises
from her chair. “Not everyone” She tosses the response she had been holding, at her as she leaves the room.
Vanessa looks down at the solitary response card
and then in the direction Loren had walked, grabs the card and looks at it.
Goldie - “What was that all about?”
Both Vanessa and Goldie look at Jessica. “I
don’t know.”
Vanessa - “Who is the response from?”
Goldie – “Something McGregor”
Vanessa - “let me see”
Jess glances at the card as it is passed in front
of her. “It’s Chad.” Jess gets up and walks in the direction that Loren went.
Reece - “Who’s Chad”
Vanessa sighs.
“He and Loren dated for a long time.”
Reece - “he’s not Tristan’s
father”
Vanessa -
“No. Their relationship didn’t survive her move to America”
Reece nodded.
Unlike Jessica who was so open, Loren’s life is still pretty much a mystery to her.
Goldie - “I thought they had gotten over
that break up thing and moved on and are friends”
Vanessa shrugs - “perhaps the getting over
was only one sided”
Jess finds Loren down in Goldie’s garden,
pulling weeds.
Jess - “Don’t make a pregnant woman
chase after you”
Loren - “I didn’t ask to be chased”
Jess - “ok, you’ve been in a shitty
mood all morning, I only have an hour until I have to leave for the airport so spill it”
Loren - “ Chad’s not coming”
Jess - “And”
Loren’s silent. Jessica struggles to sit down on the ground. “Ok, I
can sympathize to a point, but he is your EX-boyfriend. Normally Ex’s don’t
come to each other’s weddings and I know you weren’t expecting him to say yes. So what is really the
matter?”
Loren is silent for a few more seconds, then sighs
and hands Jess a folded sheet of paper.
Jess - “What’s this”
Loren - “It’s a Don Henley song, but
it’s also what was with Chad’s
reply”
She unfolds the paper and sits there reading it.
My Dearest Buttercup:
I am in receipt of your invitation
and if you are reading this then you realize that I have chosen to decline your request of my presence at the blessed event. Please do not take my decline as a personal insult for that is not at all how it is
intended. I have my reasons for not coming but none of which are to be construed
as my not wanted to wish you the happiest of marriages and the pleasantest of lives.
My love and fond wishes to you and your betrothed.
I have to be honest. I knew about your upcoming nuptials sometime prior to receiving your invitation and during that time I
questioned whether I would be invited and if so what my answer would be. I have
done a lot of soul searching and I think this will explain better than I could ever hope to, just how much you still mean
to me . . ..
I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old, true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And the struggles we went through
And how I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door?
Make
us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?
I'm learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning again
I've been tryin' to get down
To the heart of the matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore
These times
are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
...people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age?
The trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition
cannot fill these empty arms
And the work I put between us
doesn't keep me warm
I'm learning to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know,
the less I understand
All the things I thought I'd figured out
I have to learn again
I've been trying to get down
to the heart of the matter
But everything changes
and my friends seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore
There are people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down and hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; life goes on
You keep carryin' that anger; it'll eat you up inside
I've been trying to get down
to the heart of the matter
But my will gets weak
and my thought
seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me
I've been tryin' to get down
to the heart of the matter
Because the flesh will get weak
and the ashes will scatter
So I'm thinkin' about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore
… As you will see, it is not
that I don’t want to share your special day… it is more along the line of I do not think that I could bare to.
Please forgive me and please allow
me to remain the coward when it comes to seeing you happily sharing your life with someone else. Good luck and god bless.
Forever yours,
Chad
Jess finished reading it and fold it back up and
hand it to Loren.
Jess - “ you’re not having second
thoughts about Kevin”
Loren - “ NO!”
Jess - “ ok, chill out. I just had to ask. So what are you going to do?”
Loren - “What do you mean, what am I going
to do. I am going to get married to the man I love, that’s what I am going
to do. Why should Chad’s
not coming change that!!!”
Loren gets up and walk back towards the house. Jessica getting over her shock and yells over her shoulder. “You still love him, don’t you”
Loren doesn’t say anything and just kept
on walking.
Inside the house she grabs her keys and purse
off the breakfast bar and walks into the dinning room. She quickly kisses her
mother on the cheek.
Vanessa - “Where are you going?”
Loren - “ Tristan’s riding competition
is at 3”
She nods. “Fencing and horse riding competitions,
that child has strange hobbies”
Loren shrugs and walks out the door with out another
word.
Goldie - “What on Earth is going on?”
Jessica walks into the room then and everyone
looks at her..
Reece - “Is Loren going to be ok”
Jess - “I have never known her not to be”
Vanessa - “what’s wrong with her.
2 days ago she was so excited to get fitted for her gown. Today she acts like she’s planning her funeral”
Jess - “I don’t know what is wrong.
But I am sure it will all work itself out”
Vanessa -
“ bloody hell” she smacks the tabletop. “I can’t seem
to get a straight answer out of anyone these days”
She leaves the room, Goldie looks at her daughter.
Jess - “WHAT?”
Goldie - “Don’t use that tone of voice
with me, I am still your mother. And I can tell when you are full of shit. And right now Jessica YOU are FULL of SHIT”
Goldie gets up, places her chair nicely under
the table and does the same for the one Vanessa was sitting in and then walks out of the room.
Reece looks a little frightened.
Jess - “You’ll have to excuse us.
The woman in this family tend to feed off of each other’s hormonal imbalances”
Reece - “Is Loren still getting married
to Kevin”
Jess just smiles.
“Wild horses couldn’t keep her away. She’s just dealing
with some issues right now, it happens to the best of us”
Reece - “ Please, I am the Queen of Issues”