I’m still at the window peeking out. “Hey where are the boys?”

Me – “With Betty. I wanted to talk to you.” He comes in and closes the door.

Brian – “What are they doing?” He comes up and peeks over my shoulder.

Me – “They’re all scrambling around. There’s about ten cameras fixed on this window. I keep teasing them.” I giggle and open the blinds a little and then close them really fast. “I’m hoping they’ll eventually run out of film.”

Brian – “Not likely. Come on you should sit.”

Me – “Trying to take care of me again.”

Brian – “No.”

Me – “Good.” I sit on the bed. “Dr. Kelley will be in soon hopefully he’s going to say I can go home.”

Brian – “That’s good. You feel up to it right.”

Me – “Oh yeah. But it brings up a new problem.”

Brian – “Where the babies are going.”

Me – “Yeah. I’m not arguing with you about this. I have their room ready they are coming home with me. My mom was planning on staying with me for a few weeks, I’m not sure if she still is now but it’s a big house and I have a few guestrooms. You are more then welcome to come and stay for awhile if you want. But they are coming home with me.”

Brian – “Okay. And I will take you up on that offer of a room. I’d like to be around them as much as I can. And it’s not because I think you are going to take off with them I’m sorry I said that I didn’t really mean it.”

Me – “I know. Everything is going to be confusing for awhile so we should probably just give each other some slack. I’m sorry I jumped to conclusions.”

Brian – “I’m sorry I treated you like you weren’t sitting there. We use to be pretty good friends do you think we can get back to that if nothing else.”

“Do you want more then that?”  I asked nervously, I didn’t really want to know the answer.

Brian – “I honestly don’t know. This time last week I was getting married.”

Me – “Then why don’t we try not to read into what the other says or does.”

Brian – “okay just let things happen as they do.”

Me – “Yeah and we’ll get to where we should be.”

Brian – “okay.”  He reaches out and takes my hand.

Me – “So what did you have to promise John to get him to plant that question for you.”

Brian – “Noticed that huh.”

Me – “Kind of hard to miss. He has more tact then to ask a question like that.”

Brian – “I was afraid you weren’t going to let me apologize.”

Me – “I wasn’t.”

Brian – “I know. He wants to come up and say hi. No interview just so he can see for himself that you are okay.”

Me – “Alright. After the doctor gets here.”

Brian – “Oh one other thing.”

Me – “Yeah.” We’re sitting on my bed.

Brian fidgets a little.  “I have been doing a lot of thinking these past couple days.  Mostly about you and I and I know that we had our problems and we still have a lot more to go through but I wanted you to know that I am glad that you are the one that had my kids.  I know that in this day it is an option for you not to have had them and I’m glad that you decided to go through with it.  And even though I still can not believe that you didn’t tell me I admire you for deciding to do this without me.”

I am crying and he hugs me.  “I really missed your hugs.”

Brian – “I just missed you.”

Me – “You did?”

Brian – “Yeah at the oddest times I would want to call you to see what you were doing.  I actually got as far as dialing your number once but you had it disconnected.  I took it as a sign and didn’t call your cell.”

Me – “You know if you would have called I would have told you.  I wouldn’t have been able to keep this from you.”

Brian – “I’m sorry that I didn’t come to you.”

Me – “I think we both should just plead temporary insanity for these last few months.”

Brian – “okay.” He wipes my tears away. “So can I bring the kids back in now. Or do you want to rest.”

Me – “Might as well bring them in. Since we were on the news I expect our parents at any time.”

Brian – “I guess it would be hard to keep them away now.”

Me – “Yeah.” As if on cue, Brian’s mom knocks on the door.

Jackie – “Oh hello.  I’m sorry am I disturbing you.”  We’re still sitting on the bed and Brian’s still holding my hand.

Brian – “No come in mom.”

Jackie-  “I figured since you where on the TV, it would be okay to come back to visit.”

Brian - “yeah that’s fine.”

Jackie - “So where are my grandsons?  I looked in the nursery and the blinds were closed but that nice nurse told me they were in here with you.”

Brian - “Actually they have their own room.  I’ll go get them I’ll be right back.”  He kisses my cheek and leaves.

Now I’m nervous.  I’ve never actually met Brian’s mom and now she’s standing there looking at me.

Me - “Would you like to sit down?  Or something to drink.  My sister in law smuggled me in some soda.”

Jackie - “That would be nice thank you.”  She sits down and takes the can of soda.  “Well we’ve never been properly introduced.  I’m Jackie.”

Me - “Jessica.  I’m sorry about all of this.  I really am.  I just wasn’t thinking.”

Jackie - “That’s obvious.  It’s all right dear.  I’m sure my son has his share of blame in all of this.  I just wish I could have met you before you had my grandchildren.  But that’s neither here nor there.  How are you feeling?”

Me - “Good.  Dr. Kelley might let me go home.”

Jackie - “Well that will help.  Just getting out of here, where everyone has you under a spot light.”

Me - “I’m kind of nervous.  The only experience I’ve had with kids is my nephew and he’s only a few months old.”

Jackie - “It will come natural to you I’m sure.”

Me - “I hope so.  Brian’s been really great with them.”

Jackie - “Yes he is.  I was wondering…”

Brian - “Here we are.”  He comes in pushing one bassinet and Betty has the other.

Jackie - “There’s my boys.”  She stands up and walks over to the baby that Brian has.  “Which one is this?”

Brian - “This is Thomas and that is Noah.”  She starts gushing over Thomas and Brian brings Noah to me.

She visits awhile and then my parents show up.  Everyone is there for about an hour when thankfully Dr. Kelley comes in and kicks everyone out.

Me - “Thanks.”

Dr. K - “You know you could ask them to leave.”

Me - “No it’s okay.  Everyone’s just really excited about the babies.”  He’s examining me as we talk.

Dr. K - “yeah but you need to set up rules now otherwise they will all but move in with you.  Trust me I speak from experience.  Are you feeling any pain?”

Me - “A little but mostly I’m just a little stiff from sitting around.”

Dr. K - “Well everything looks good.  How would you like to go home?”

Me - “Really.  You mean today.”

Dr. K - “Yeap I don’t see any reason to keep you here any longer and I can see that the babies are doing well.”

Me - “That would be great.”

Dr. K - “Okay I’ll go get your discharge papers ready.  You should be out of here in a couple hours.”

Me - “Great.”

Dr. K - “Okay be back in a bit.”  He leaves and just Brian comes back in.

Brian - “So what’s the word?”

Me - “Where is everyone?”

Brian - “They went to get some coffee.”

Me - “I can go home.”

Brian - “Today.”

Me - “Yeah.  He’s going to go start my paperwork.  I should be out of here in a couple of hours.”

Brian - “Great.”

Me - “Hey what’s wrong?”

Brian - “Nothing.  So do we need to get anything for the house?”

Me - “Actually yes.  Since I thought I was only having one baby.  I only got one car seat.”

Brian - “Not a problem.  Where’s the other one?”

Me - “At my house.  Loren has the keys and everything.  I could just ask her to do it.”

Brian - “No.  That’s okay I’ll get it.  I’ll have my mom run out and get a car seat for Noah while I run to your house.”

Me - “Okay.  Oh I can’t wait to get out of here.”

Brian - “I’ll be back as soon as I can.”  He turns to leave.

Me - “Hey, are you sure you’re okay?”

Brian - “yeah I’m fine.  Be back.”

He leaves but I can’t shake the feeling that something is wrong.  There’s something he’s not telling me.  I really don’t get time to dwell on what ever it might be cause John comes in to visit quick and then there’s papers to sign and both sets of parents are there along with Stephen and Reece with Ollie in a stroller.